Munchkin had a seldom-seen stillness about him this morning that was especially apparent on the drive to school. This stillness allowed for a palpable openness about him–something that I rarely get to see. Typically, Jackson’s personalty is such that he must be in control at all times. He is completely and unequivocally in command of his surroundings and the things he allows himself to be exposed to. He’s a child on high alert. Some folks tell me this is a good thing, but for me it can be disheartening to constantly be shut down at every turn. There are so many things I would love to do or experience with Jackson that he simply will not have any part of. And while that’s completely okay, it doesn’t lessen the isolation I sometimes feel, stemming from living in a very thwarted and limited world. But this morning was different. Jackson talked. I listened. I talked. He listened. Did you get that? WE talked!
This openness allowed a rawness to surface inside me that shattered my soul–a rawness that is oftentimes stifled by the day-to-day tasks and responsibilities of parenting. The utter rawness I felt while driving to school left me broken and humbled beyond description. I get to be this child’s mom. Me! What an absolute privilege! I am so underserving of this magnificent gift. How easy it is in parenting a child with developmental challenges and special needs to mistake parenting solely as a serious responsibility (NOT burden, mind you), as opposed to the blessing it truly is.
My prayer: Thank you, God, for entrusting us with this precious child of yours. Guide our every breath word, action and reaction, O Lord, as we steward him through his life on earth. Give us your wisdom and knowledge as we raise this child up. Let you Spirit direct our steps as we teach this precious little one to love you, to love Jesus, and to love all people. Let us love him with the same love, grace, mercy and peace with which You love us. Be glorified in all we do, Lord–especially as parents. In the name of your precious Son, Jesus. Amen.
Don’t miss this, folks. We are blessed! You and I are so very blessed.
Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a reward… ~Psalms 127:3